Eighteen
So, I am now Eighteen?! Crazy!
Today has been a real mix of emotions, I started off the day with two of my best friends Paige and Giorgia.
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| Me and Giorgia (couldnt find one with Paige in!) |
We stayed up till like 1am eating, drinking and giggling and I couldn't have had a better start to my day.
The morning wasn't the best, I had a bit of a meltdown but Paige and Giorgia were there to hug me and make sure I was ok! I also had lovely photos from a few friends put on Instagram with such lovely messages and also a video of me and my best friend Natalie dancing and singing in my car which I have to admit, made me cry a little...
Then we all went to town and I got some lovely presents, I also met my friend Jess who I haven't seen in months and we went for a drink. However, throughout the day I couldn't shake the feeling of being sad and all I really wanted was to be at home, crying and listening to Coldplay. I ended up ringing my lovely friend Ruth on the way home who I ranted to about my day and how I was gutted I wouldn't be seeing her on my birthday!
Then, when I got home, I had to get ready to go out. I was not in the mood. I had never been so upset or angry in my life and all I really wanted to do was curl up in bed and sleep forever. I told mum and dad I felt rubbish and I cried a little bit more in the bath, it wasn't turning out to be a good day. Dad had told me we were going to the pub and I was going to buy a drink since I legally can now. I wasn't too happy about this (because I'm a mardy teenager) and had said that I specifically didn't want to go to said pub because we go all the time and it just wasn't special. I was told we were going out for a posh meal after and thought this was what was happening. Oh, how wrong I was.
When I got into the pub I heard a giant scream and when I looked up most of my closest friends were there (minus Lizzie who was late, Eloise who was ill, Maddie who got her days mixed up, Kayla who never got the invitation in the first place for some reason and Natalie who was in Switzerland). I had never been so shocked in my life and I burst into tears. After a whole day of feeling like complete poo it was a huge relief to see a group of people who make my life worthwhile (cringe but true). Among the group of people was Ruth and all I could do was run up to her and give her a huge hug.
Then, behind them was my family who had come from Chester, Liverpool and Bristol to be with me, so I cried again. Included in them were my little cousins Ella and Liv who two of the sweetest human beings and make me laugh all the time.
The morning wasn't the best, I had a bit of a meltdown but Paige and Giorgia were there to hug me and make sure I was ok! I also had lovely photos from a few friends put on Instagram with such lovely messages and also a video of me and my best friend Natalie dancing and singing in my car which I have to admit, made me cry a little...
Then we all went to town and I got some lovely presents, I also met my friend Jess who I haven't seen in months and we went for a drink. However, throughout the day I couldn't shake the feeling of being sad and all I really wanted was to be at home, crying and listening to Coldplay. I ended up ringing my lovely friend Ruth on the way home who I ranted to about my day and how I was gutted I wouldn't be seeing her on my birthday!
Then, when I got home, I had to get ready to go out. I was not in the mood. I had never been so upset or angry in my life and all I really wanted to do was curl up in bed and sleep forever. I told mum and dad I felt rubbish and I cried a little bit more in the bath, it wasn't turning out to be a good day. Dad had told me we were going to the pub and I was going to buy a drink since I legally can now. I wasn't too happy about this (because I'm a mardy teenager) and had said that I specifically didn't want to go to said pub because we go all the time and it just wasn't special. I was told we were going out for a posh meal after and thought this was what was happening. Oh, how wrong I was.
When I got into the pub I heard a giant scream and when I looked up most of my closest friends were there (minus Lizzie who was late, Eloise who was ill, Maddie who got her days mixed up, Kayla who never got the invitation in the first place for some reason and Natalie who was in Switzerland). I had never been so shocked in my life and I burst into tears. After a whole day of feeling like complete poo it was a huge relief to see a group of people who make my life worthwhile (cringe but true). Among the group of people was Ruth and all I could do was run up to her and give her a huge hug.
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| Me and Ruth tonight |
Then, behind them was my family who had come from Chester, Liverpool and Bristol to be with me, so I cried again. Included in them were my little cousins Ella and Liv who two of the sweetest human beings and make me laugh all the time.
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| Very blurry photo of Me and Ella |
After all the crying I had a lovely time, we played cards against humanity, ate food and drank alcohol. Birthdays aren't great for me. People tend to turn on me on my birthday and after looking forward to my 18th for so long I'm really annoyed at myself for spending most of it crying. But, today taught me who my true friends are, the people I need to stop pushing away and hang on, the ones who can keep a secret from me for like three months and the ones who are lovely to my family. So, now I can get rid of some fake friends. Thank you to everyone who made a real effort today and to the people who couldn't be there but still made a real effort to make me feel loved, even if they are in another country (*cough* Natalie *cough*)! Now i can look forward to tomorrow where I get to see more friends and maybe even cry a bit more! And also drink...there will be lots of that!
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