Hello You Lovely Lot!

It's been a while hasn't it? December has been slightly overwhelming for me if I'm honest and one of the worst months this year. I thought being at home would make me a lot happier, however it seems that's not the case. I failed with Blogmas and Vlogmas (maybe next year I'll stick to one) this year which I'm disappointed about because I was so excited about them both! On the other hand, this gives me a chance to rebuild myself, my YouTube channel and my Blog. This is the year that I work hard on everything and focus on myself.

The term 'New Year, New Me' is one I used to use and I have come to realise that it's a phrase I hate. I'm not going to become a different person in the New Year because then I wouldn't be me. I can't become a polar opposite overnight and I don't want to. I have made mistakes this year but have also done wonderful things. Am I about to forget all of these great things just because I did a few things I wish I could change? No. Being human is all about making mistakes and believe me, I know all about that.

So, next year I will not be a new person. I will try and be a happier person. If that means that I am a better person then great, if I stay the same then that's fine too. As long as I don't become a worse person (is that the right word?) then I'm totally ok with that. This year my happiness has suffered, sometimes through no fault of my own. I endeavour to change that. No matter what situation I'm in, how many friends I have, what city I'm in or how much money I have, I want to be happy. I will start putting how I feel first and do things I want to do. No more will I depend on other people to make me happy. I will also appreciate the people who do happen to make me happy. They don't always get the recognition they deserve and that's my fault. I think I'm going to do a whole other post on my New Years resolutions because next year I'm determined to stick to them.

In 17 days I'll be 20. That scares me because I will no longer be a teenager. I know I will feel no different when the day comes but I think something will need to change. I need to start taking my education more seriously if I want to get where I want to be. More on that in my New Years Resolutions post.

So, in conclusion...

• I'm sorry I've been away
• Next year I'll try and blog more
• I want to be happier this time next year