rebecca

Now, obviously I've heard this saying before, I haven't been living under a rock. However, today it made me think more than it has ever done before. I have always been one to depend on other people and to cling on to them for support, even at 18 I still do it. It must annoy the hell out of people, I just don't like keeping stuff bottled up because in past experiences it's lead me in to some real trouble.

2014 was a tough year for me, I won't deny it. I was at a new college in a new friendship group and I didn't really know what to do. So, typical me, I latched on to certain people. This worked fine and I was happy-ish until September came. September meant moving up to year 13, having new classes and making new friends however this also meant leaving some of my old friends behind. With certain friends this didn't seem to be a problem because they would still make an effort to talk to me and I would do the same back and this was all well and good. With other friends however this didn't work the same. I made as much effort as I could but no matter how hard I tried, I guess you can't change some people. It had been like this with some people as soon as I met them, but I looked past it and put a brave face on until nasty comments started to be made and other friends made me realise what a toxic environment I was in. I confronted these people and although my past 24 hours have been spent crying and listening to sad music (mainly coldplay) I feel like my life has been improved.

My point is, if people don't make you happy (or in my case, they start to bring you down) get rid of them. No matter how lovely they seem at first. If you waste time being upset over them, they are NOT worth it. If someone has upset you, get your favourite book out, put on your favourite CD and eat chocolate till you're stuffed. Go on a road trip, watch your favourite TV show, meet up with friends who actually have the energy to sort stuff out and don't leave you to try and salvage stuff.

So, now i've vented out all my anger...I'll end this post and try and think of something slightly happier next time!!

Thanks for reading

Becky x