rebecca

Hello You Lovely Lot!

I am writing this from my house in Liverpool where I live whist I go to University, I am finally back. I'll be honest with you all, I can't help but feel a bit deflated. I was quite looking forward to coming back because my birthday is on the 17th of January. I'm going to Breakout (one of those escape rooms, blog post to follow) with my English Literature friends and then having my Drama friends over for drinks afterwards and I've been so excited about these things ever since I had them planned.

There's no point in me lying to anyone, I really struggled last term at University, especially towards the end of it. I ended up going home every weekend because I just couldn't cope with being away. it made me feel so lonely and various other things contributed to my loneliness. The only solution I could find was to be at home as much as I could and so I would travel home on a Thursday night and travel back on a Monday, I spent more time at home than I did at University. My friends didn't really get it and I would get 'You're going home again?!' quite a lot. I'm not sure how I'll get on this year but my plan is to only go home when I really need to. I'm seeing Jack Whitehall on the 10th of February and then Busted the weekend after. I then have the Easter holidays for pretty much the whole of April and I'll be done by the beginning of June. I also have my friend Chloe coming to stay on the 4th of February for a late birthday weekend for us both (her birthday was the 12th of January!).

Even though I know it's only about three weeks until I go home again I'm struggling. I don't want to rely on going home because

1. I miss out on quite a few things (parties, theatre shows, birthdays etc)
2. I want to enjoy the University experience as much as I can.

Hello You Lovely Lot!

So, today marks my last week in Nottingham before I move back to Liverpool (technically I move on Saturday so my last week was literally last week but we can overlook that because I upload blog posts on a Monday). If you've been reading my blog for a bit now or you know me personally you will know I had a bit of trouble last year. I felt very homesick and alone for most of the year (through my own fault).

I never thought I would say this but I am genuinely SO excited to get back to University! I feel like I'm at a point in my life where I'm ready to make my own decisions again. Obviously I make my own decisions at home but there's just something different at University. When I left Uni last year I think I was so glad to be at home but as the weeks have passed I have realised that maybe I didn't take advantage of the time I spent in Liverpool. I really think I've grown as a person in the time between leaving and this week. I feel like that sounds super cliché but it's true.

I have really learnt a lot of things this summer, some things felt like the end of the world but I'm glad they happened now. It's all made me really appreciate Liverpool and see it in a different light. Of course I'll miss my family and friends but I'm going to make a real effort to not go home as much this year because I think it adds to the homesickness if that's even possible? I have started to get used to nights out. I never used to drink much or go on nights out ever but this summer has taught me that nothing (too) bad can happen and even if you have work the next day and do a shift where you can't even look at the vodka, you'll be ok.

So thank you Summer 2016 for teaching me many things and genuinely changing me as a person. I feel like when I go back to Uni I'm really going to enjoy (and document, obvs) every second of it. I'm sorry this has been a bit of a rambly post but I think I just needed to get this all off my chest.

Thanks For Reading!

Becky x